I miss my Son

Nick

Sometimes it feels like everyone is looking at me,

Or nobody is.

Because I scare them.

It isn't catching and I am tired of it all.

~

Sometimes I just want to scream,

"At least you can still hug your son."

Sometimes I wish that their son had died...not mine.

The emptiness is all consuming but exhausting,

I am embarrassed by all the attention....

But I feel worse if they forget.

It isn't catching and I am tired of it all.

~

My beautiful boy so full of life and joy,

Where did you go?

The loss of your vibrancy and enthusiasm

Has left a vacuum that is impossible to fill.

How can someone with so much life just be done?

It isn't catching.....and I am soooo tired of it all